Wednesday, November 28, 2007


I had a dream the other night that still plagues me. Tokyo & New York were two sides of the same coin.  Night turned to day, people I met turned to cobwebs, and the sky, a steel gray, began to fill with rain. I walked out from the shelter of the building's awning and gazed down to one end of the city and then the other. My memories began to turn inside out in my flesh. I walked into a dry cleaners, seeking clarity. Three brothers in chef whites and angry faces worked industriously inside. One turned to me and his stony face cracked into a warm smile. I began to work with them until my mother came in. Then I said, "Mozzeltof." Then I work up. Does anyone know what they hell mozzeltof actually means? I've looked online, but as you probably already know, we are in a post-post modern age and Google is not God. Is mozzeltof one of those ubiquitous words, that means everything and nothing? mozzeltof (uses of) "You're pregnant, mozzeltof." Ernie's been writing online for five years. Mozzeltof! Unless you're Israeli, in which case...go crazy. Mozzeltof. ???

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

Party In My Bedroom

"When things are at their darkest, pal, it's a brave man that can kick back and party" -- Lt Tuck Pendler (Dennis Quaid), "Inner Space"
I know that sounds completely dodgy, but in this case, the party is an obscure, little known reference to the fact that I've been spending more time than usual in my room due to being sick. The party attendees are me & Donnie, who keeps finding new sources of crack underneath my bookshelf and I don't know how he does it. I've been deeply ensconced in massive duvet action on my bed, with an armful of books and crap VHS tapes that I found in the hallway. My house, which in three weeks will soon be knocked down, turn to dust, is a large rambling place with strange collections of hothouse plants from Spain, books, movies, art, musical instruments, furniture, and oh yeah, people. Everything went wrong Saturday before last; some of you know exactly what I'm talking about. But sometimes, when life shits in your cornflakes, you've just got to embrace it and run as fast as you can, as far as you can, until your lungs ache, the stitch in your side is screaming and then you remember that this is what it feels like to be alive. Really. It's hard to accept that sometimes it's okay for things to be shit. Losing a phone is great. Instant holiday! I had to email my work that I was sick TWICE (even if I'd had my phone, they wouldn't have been able to understand my squeak of a voice.) Not being able to unlock my bike (keys were stolen) meant I just rode the bus all week. Being sick provides the perfect excuse for feeling sorry for yourself, the perfect structure - you even have a valid reason for making whimpering noises to yourself: you're no longer in existential pain, you're in REAL physical pain. I'm telling you, this getting sick business is what everyone needs, especially if you're like me and never relax. Someone recently told me that the best approach to life is just to relax in any given situation; if I'm perfectly honest, I thought he was full of shit. He was younger than me and struck up a conversation with me by telling me he was a foot model. And we were sitting on the floor of an art gallery, half waiting for the next act to come on and half being the art, in a way, but not really. We met on the Saturday before last, before all the bad things happened and before, of course, I got sick. Now I see that he was right. I've sort of made it my mission if not to relax, then to at least remember that relaxing is the best approach to everything. Anyways, I'm totally getting off the point. I was off sick from work for one day one week and then two days the following week. I watched loads of great movies that I saw probably more than a decade ago, and they they weren't as crap as I thought I'd think they were. "Inner Space" for instance. When Dennis Quaid said that line, he summed up exactly how I've been feeling for months - things have felt shit, and I almost wanted to take down the party and put it all back in the box. It takes a brave person to simply carry on and enjoy things and have fun in the face of massive change and uncertainty and to ride it like a fucking urban cowboy. My friend Stu over at feelinglistless has this great technique starting each blog entry with a quote, which I totally love, and since this week has been perfect for quote accumulation, the first place I thought to put them was on the blog. How I feel about the quotes is how I used to feel about commercials when I was a kid. I was a complete tv junkie. My parents gave me free reign of a massively large screen tv and VCR. I didn't have any brothers or sisters. At the end of my complete fixation with tv-watching, and I began to grow bored of the tired cheap plotlines of sitcoms and soap operas and family dramas, that was when I fell in love with commercials. I'd spend hours flicking through the channels, just watching the 1 minute gems. The silver-lining: after all that angst-ridden period of difficulty, I've definitely had a breakthrough in my thoughts about what I want to do over the next 6 months. I've made some decisions. Discussed plans with family and compared strategies. I also found a flat and it's beautiful and I'm just hoping that nothing hiccups. If all goes to plan, I'll be moving on Friday. My friend Col and her fiancee are planning to give me a hand, and a few other friends have also offered possible help. I'm hopeful.

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Thursday, November 08, 2007

Brighton & Hove Web Awards

It's that time of year again - yes, it's the local SCIP web awards. I really love and anticipate this competition because it's local, because poking my nose in and out of websites is fun. I don't like sport, but this is as close as I will get to waiting with abated breath as to who's gonna win. Over the years, friends sites have come up as contenders and one year I helped out and got drunk for free at the awards ceremony. Hm. That was last year wasn't it? That's probably why I haven't been invited to help shortlist again, isn't it? Damn. This year, the sites are ok, and on the blogger section, there are a few favorites, although I'd expect in a city with over 500 bloggers that people would deviate from the standard Blogger templates (okay, I haven't but that's because I don't know how !) My friend, the amazingly gifted designer and artist Julia Zeen has had her simple yet stylish site be shortlisted for Best Business Site. How cool is that? Julia's most well known in Brighton for being the beauty behind the grime in Brighton music scene, designing many club flyers - check out the one she did for Cut Loose's night when they had John B headlining - simply too cool for school I think. I highly recommend that you get your vote in - deadline is Wednesday 14th November.

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Sunday, November 04, 2007

Forward Planning

It's official: I'm a bit bored of clubs. I'm tired, period. It's autumn. Life moves too fast and then we wonder why we start resembling pomeranians from Eastbourne. I think it's time to call a time-out, lean back on the half-sides, and watch orange-coloured leaves drift lazily down to the ground....... However -- the only two things on my to-do list this month, which should be on everyone's social agenda all happen on Saturday 17th November. One is free, one is not -- both are great. FOLLOWED BY The Slackers Convention @ Concorde2 Saturday November 17th 3 Rooms of 'Breaks Beats and Party Vibes for the Discerning Underachiever' Main Room General Midi (Distinctive) SOTO (Botchitt) Jnr Hacksaw LIVE (Trigger) Dirtpop Widescreen visuals from VJ Spank The awesome Y-Inter Soundsystem Bar - The Slackers Residents and Guests Mjoogoo (NSB Radio) Analogue People (NSB Radio) Miss Max (Supatronix) Symmetrik (Bloc/Hyponik) Toxic Shock (Kinky Robot) 3rd Room Open DJ competition hosted by Funkollectif Soundsystem see our website for entry details @ Concorde 2, Madeira Drive, Brighton Venue Doors 11.00 - 5am ID may be required £7 Advance Tickets/Badge - Rounder, Resident and Ticketweb £10 Door/£7 NUS

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Friday, November 02, 2007

Dia De Los Muertos

It's the Mexican day of the dead !